dodgingthebullet

If I leave this world

Will you cry?

When it’s time to say goodbye

Will you think of what we shared?

The happy times we had

Selfish, so selfish

Holding the knife

Every breathe I take

I took them for you

I lived for you

When I throw in the towel

When I give up

Will you forgive my weakness?

Will you speak of my fight?

Think just of what made you smile

Selfish, so selfish

Holding the knife

Every breathe I take

I took them for you

I lived for you

Don’t hold on to me

I’m not worth it

Many years has gone by

You’ve been by my side

But I can’t fight anymore

Selfish, so selfish

Holding the knife

Every breathe I take

I took them for you

I lived for you

I can’t live my life like this

No one wants to touch me

Hold me tight, hold me close

Comfort me, fight for me

Make love to me…

Selfish, so selfish

Holding the knife

Every breathe I take

I took them for you

I lived for you

I’m dying now

Bleeding out

I touch your heart once again

Then it’s time…

I left this world without you

(c)Pon 2011

Locked inside

One day oh dark world
I'll take my bag
I'll go away
I'll leave to never return

They speak of the Grey Havens
Maybe my journey ends there
Like in the Lord of the Rings
I did cry for help

I begged for mercy
I stretched out a hand
I wanted you to hold me
Wipe the tears I shed

But you turned your back
I’ll leave now
To never come back
I waved at you

You were blind
You didn’t see my despair
I cried out to you
Take my hand!

I hide sometimes
Behind a book
When life’s too much to bear
When it hurts to exist

I’ll go now
Dear friend of mine
Let’s meet again
In the Grey Havens